Imperfection

For this film I am using a new endoscopic camera which builds up through use of claustrophobic and unusual imagery a sense of disturbing and uncomfortable feelings. I was influenced by Kate Craig whose work bears close resemblance to this film with her use of organic surfaces and the idea of identity. Such as I have had to endure my illness and obsessions I feel it is fitting to place others in a similar position to measure reaction and understanding from an outside view point how if at all they can relate to any of the feelings I am trying to convey.

The inclusion of blood and the interior of the body create a cascade of surreal almost horrific imagery. Not knowing what you are actually witnessing on the screen can be a powerful sentiment to ask questions and want more visual information to complete the fragmented visuals in the film.

The soundtrack was created to be one of the most difficult to listen to. I felt it was necessary to match the confusing and distressing imagery with an equally troubled soundtrack.

I used Adobe Premiere Pro for film making/editing and Garageband for my soundtrack.

Cataclysmic Events

For this film I decided to echo a film I made in Third Year called Almost There. In said film I used still images to create a visual frenzy of repeated photographs alongside an almost schizophrenic like soundtrack which I had created. The research has remained the same since last semester – The Viennese Actionists and the works of Mona Hatoum. My experimental use of audio has also influenced the thought process into how I visualise moving image, showing a marriage of audio/video.

The film title Cataclysmic Events came very late on for this particular piece. The use of multiscreen was also an element which I felt would bring a more interesting and mysterious viewing. The nature of the clips used are to show the obsessive and random emotions going through an individual who suffers from mental illness. This film is an endurance piece to be experienced by the audience. The bombardment of visual imagery with the four screens alongside the soundtrack is meant to overwhelm and force people to try and focus on one particular screen or to have their eyes struggle to keep up with each movement displayed. The soundtrack is also to daze and add to the confusing nature of this piece.

I used Adobe Premiere Pro for film making/editing and Garageband for my soundtrack.

Vision of the Present

For this film continued with the theme of mental illness. This is the only film which I did not use the cage in any form. I filmed the majority of it back home at my parents’ house, both indoor and outdoor scenes. Two scenes are filmed in my flat in Dundee. The inclusion of parts of an older film was utilized also – the short snippets of the discoloured face banging at the camera almost, reaching out for the viewer. For the film I got the idea of using some sort of veil as I had done for part of my first film (Nature of OCD). I decided to wrap the veil around me and shoot a prominent recurring scene outside on my decking, creating a sterile static environment. I experimented with a cloning technique in Adobe Premiere Pro so I could appear kneeling down and also standing on either side. I also work with fading in and out versions of me to symbolize the loss of identity and lack of initial understanding of my own mind/condition at times. My back is to the camera in these scenes as I wanted to appear anonymous and nondescript, as with the majority of the other scenes in the film which have my face partially hidden within the shroud. The notable exception is in two scenes with my face in almost complete darkness. I used extreme close ups for much of the film contrasting with the long shot of the figures on the decking.

The soundtrack was entirely composed by me; consisting of disoriented voices, heavy breathing, laughter and electronic sounds. I wanted to create something unusual and unnerving to give the audience a feeling of not knowing what is going on and perhaps to unsettle them just a little. I also wanted to convey the “madness” of a troubled/crowded mental landscape.

For this film I used Adobe Premiere Pro for film making and editing, Garageband for my soundtrack creation.

Damages

For this film I again used a cage to represent the theme of mental illness. I decided to make use of the cage in a more subtle fashion filming it with a white sheet encasing it’s structure, surrounded by extreme darkness (in contrast to the very open and bright background of my first film (Nature of OCD). I also chose to limit my colour palette. The scenes in the film use light and the silhouette of my face/hands. The random movements I make within the cage represent the restlessness of my mind which sometimes races with obsessive thoughts and compulsions. The nature of the hand and head movements also harkens back to when I was a child; I used to experience made up scenes from films and cartoons inside my mind, as I acted out scenarios when I was playing. The use of silhouettes through the cage has a sinister look almost Nosferatuesque feel to it. This adds to the issues I am choosing to represent, as mental illness can be perceived as a horrifying grotesque and tormented experience.

The soundtrack was created through the use of cracking and ripping noises. This was used to create a fragmented feel for the film. Almost as if the person in the cage is trying to break out as indeed I do at the end of the film with the hand pushing the cage door open.
Filming was done inside an enclosed space, a garage. The atmosphere created by being within it and then further imprisoned within the cage was an important aspect of planning. I wanted to convey the claustrophobic feeling which is a strong element of my OCD.
I used Adobe Premiere Pro for film making/editing and Garageband for my soundtrack.